The Problem

"I've been attending ARP/PASG meetings for a long time.  I've been praying, fasting, and reading my scriptures.  I've been talking to my Bishop and trying to follow his counsel.  I've even done all the Study and Understanding questions several times over, but I JUST CAN'T STOP!  I've confided in family and friends, I've confessed and committed, and it's one humiliating failure after another.  What is the problem...what is wrong with me? Has Heavenly Father given up on me?  That just can't be, but sometimes I really feel that He has...why else would I keep failing at recovery? In the meetings, I've heard some people talk about a Support Person or sponsor.  It seems to make a difference in their recovery, but I want to do this all on my own. Honestly, I'm too scared to reach out...what if they say no or worse yet, what if I fail again!  Besides, how do I find a Support Person anyway?  Won't I be bothering or burdening others by asking for their help?  I just don't know how much longer I can go on like this."